Something to think about. Is it necessary?

Yesterday, and on some other days too, Tee completely defies me. This always happens in Nana’s presence. I’ll tell her not to have a 3rd donut and she would have that 3rd donut. I cannot reprimand her there and then, because my mother would only come to her rescue.

The other day, Tee had 2 serves of apple crumble with ice cream (which Mom had made), and then she had an entire Magnum stick by herself on top of having some cake. Later, she wanted more apple crumble with ice cream and I said no. That was way too much sugar for the day. Nana came to her aid and said, “It’s OK, you can share with Nana.”

I said NO!!

Nana completely ignores me and walks up to the fridge and says it is for her, not Tee. Liar.

So I warned Tee, “If Nana offers you that apple crumble, please say no thank you. I mean it. No more sugar for the day. Say no, ok?”

She gives me this look of distress.

Nana comes back with apple crumble and ice cream and makes Tee sit beside her and when they think I’m not looking, she quickly stuffs a mouthful into Tee’s mouth. 10 minutes later when they’ve finished ‘sharing’ their apple crumble, Tee comes to me and touches my hand to test the waters.

“Please don’t touch me,” I say.

The look of panic bleeds from her eyes.

“I told you not to eat more apple crumble and you chose not to listen to me, your own mother. So please don’t talk to me and don’t touch me now. I’m incredibly upset.” I give her a glare.

The monkey starts crying and I ask her why she’s crying. She doesn’t stop and I ignore her. Nana tells me off for being so cruel and carries her away but Tee comes back to me, still crying, trying to get my approval. I don’t give in. I’m mad at Nana, I’m mad at Tee, I’m mad at the fact that none of them respect me.

The same thing happened yesterday despite the crying episode above. So last night, I told Tee that from now on, she can eat as much sugar as she wants but just know that her own mother is crying inside every time she has an overdose on sugar. She cried and I had no sympathy. She always cries when it suits her and when she wants that bar of chocolate, she will defy me when Nana is around. She knows I cannot control Nana. So we’ll see how she manages her own sugar intake from now on. As the Hubs told her, “Tee, you’ve got to decide. It’s chocolate or your Mama.”

Which made me think, when T2 grows up and acts as an obedient girl (someone who doesn’t give me any grief) as opposed to Tee not being obedient, will I end up loving her more? Is it not natural to just feel more for someone who gives you back more? Obviously, Tee defying me, tells me she doesn’t care much for my feelings…..

Then I thought of my own mother…..although I love her very much, I don’t do much to show it, which probably makes her think that her other children or whoever else love her more. I guess I just don’t know how to show it her way. Different people are different and only a very worldly, broadminded person would accept that just because nothing is done her way, it does not mean that the love isn’t there. In matters of the heart, things are not so straightforward. I cannot be a hypocrite and keep asking her everyday how she is if I don’t feel it.

I have a friend who visits her mother every Sunday and I can’t help thinking that because her mother is old and rich, she wants some inheritance so she is being good at making her mother happy so that she gets the bulk of that inheritance from her 7 other siblings. Unfortunately, I know quite a few people who are only being nice to their mothers because of the hope of something back. Really! This disgusts me.

So what can I do? I love my Mom but I don’t know how to convince her that I do. I don’t want to pretend, just in case SHE thinks I want something from her too! So…….to hell with it. God can tell her later if she wants to know the truth.

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