Although my girls look happy, their Mother has been perpetually stressed for the last month. I don’t know what or why but I know I am always on edge. The slightest thing sets me off into a blazing dragon spewing lethal fire upon anyone who crosses my path.

So why have I been stressed?

Number One: What probably set it off was me being the tour guide every day with 2 young children in tow. And guess what, we have more guests coming end of March to stay with us. I will prepare myself better this time so I won’t be so stressed. On top of that, people had demands of me when I was already so busy.

Number Two: My helper drives me insane. May I reiterate that she has a really good life with us and because she has so much free time, I expect very little margin for error. But noooooo…….mistakes are repetitive and there are lots of mistakes. The other day, I instructed her to pack baby’s food into the freezer pack (spoon in ziplock bag – check, jar of apple puree – check, bottle of water – check, food bib – check, face towel – check, freezer bag – check, ice packs – check). When I arrived at my destination, I discovered that there were no ice packs in the freezer bag. I was flipping mad. What if I hadn’t checked? What if I had a longer day out and the food needed to keep for longer periods? I was with a friend and told my friend that I had to call home immediately to scold the helper or I would forget later. So I did. I asked her what the point is of using a freezer bag when there were no ice packs? Later, my friend asked, “You call that scolding? That was almost apologetic.” *sigh* I admit. I am lousy at scolding. I spoke to her in a very nice tone of voice. Almost like she was somebody elses child. No wonder she can never learn.

Number Three: T2 has off days like yesterday frequently. We woke up at 8am and I had my breakfast in front of my computer (like now) whilst she played by herself, then got carried by the helper. By 10am she was wanting some boobs so I gave it to her and tried putting her to sleep. I spent the next 2 hours trying to put her to sleep and finally knocked out myself only to wake up to discover her sleeping beside me. After an hour nap, I had to wake her because I had to pick Tee up from school. At piano class, she was looking tired but wouldn’t sleep. When we finally returned home, I was sure she was going to nap but fuck me running, the baby stayed up till 7pm. So I wasted FOUR HOURS trying to put her to sleep!!! In the entire day, she slept only an hour…….plus most times she wants only me. Should I be stressed???!!!! And it’s not like she slept through the night either? She woke to feed at 9pm, 1am, 3am, 6am and then woke up for her new day at 8am. No wonder she is so skinny! She doesn’t get enough sleep but what do I do???? This must be my number one stress causer!

Number Four: External parties stress me out because they are either rude, inconsiderate, selfish or abusive. These things should not affect me but they do. I cannot stand it when people are so horrible. The world does not deserve them. And this week alone, twice I encountered horrible people of which one was at immigration.

Number Five: Tee talks non-stop. I try my best at this to not get impatient when I am already so stressed. I hate it when I’m busy doing something and she talks and talks and talks. Worse, she will accidentally wake the baby up at least once a day.

Number Six: I am never able to accomplish any tasks set out as baby will always cry for me. Like now. I have to go, but being so stressed, do you think I have any milk left to feed her?

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Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett degree in Architecture. She then spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this blog of over 15 years thereafter returning to the Corporate World stronger than ever as the Country Director of a British Multinational. She sets out to prove to all, that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.

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