I love my daughter to bits. I really, really do. But there are days when I want to make her disappear. Such as last night.
After spending two whole hours trying to get T to sleep from 8-10pm, I finally lost it. I had things to do. Lots of things. And she really needed her sleep to be alert for school the next day. She was tired but kept pushing my limits, an inch further, every half an hour or so. Whenever I raised my voice a little, she would quickly scurry into her pillow and pretend to sleep. Minutes later, there will be movement on her bed, legs kicking like an octopus poked with cactus.
Another warning.
Then, “Mummy, why did Paddington Bear spill hs marmalade?”
I raise my voice again. This continues for TWO whole hours. Why did I even bother?
So I lost it, walked out of her room and shut the door behind me.
T screamed bloody blue murder. If you ever saw a cat being skinned alive, she was it, in flesh. I have never heard her scream so loud before. Crying is one thing. But screaming the screech of hysteria was enough to make me mental. Poor neighbours. I let her out of her room (mind you, this only happened for five seconds) and locked myself in her room instead. I needed that separation in case I grabbed her and flung her out of the window. She ran around the home screaming for her Daddy, who incidentally wasn’t home.
When I came out I summoned her to face the wall, all this while yelling my head away. I was SO mad. I was SO mad that this two year old thing was stopping me from carrying on with life. I was SO mad that this two year old thing was totally disrespectful and disobedient. I was just SO mad.
She finally fell asleep at 10.45pm.
What am I doing wrong? Today, my paeditrician friend asked when she saw very clearly that T was totally oblivious to my commands, “Isn’t she scared of you?”
Are they meant to be?
I’ve tried the soft approach, talk to her nicely and get no results.
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**************************************************************************Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett degree in Architecture. She then spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this blog of over 15 years thereafter returning to the Corporate World stronger than ever as the Country Director of a British Multinational. She sets out to prove to all, that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.
Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past but has grown not one but TWO network marketing businesses in the notorious MLM (Multi-Level Marketing) industry, achieving success in under 2 years. She believes in the MLM business model but realises the DRASTIC PITFALLS and great stigma attached to it, understanding EXACTLY WHY the majority would shy away (or RUN for their lives) from ANY MLM business. But open your eyes and take time to understand it intellectually, remove your hang-ups, confirm your research, and you may just want to seize an opportunity. She did. And no, she never went about chasing people for sales. She had a sophisticated system work for her through technology and a smartphone.
She now impacts lives authentically with proven strategies amassed through the last decade of her own transformation offering online coaching programmes and always supports the underprivileged. She believes that we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.
A beautiful life without limits.
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Most lose out on an opportunity because they are afraid they would be sold to, conned or whatever fear resides in their brain without even trying. And that's on them.
Mamapumpkin is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything, and she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, and supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.
