So on top of our current woes that have been occurring one after another, yesterday I got a police summon for running out of parking money. Yeah, I brought my laptop out to SBX so I could work in peace (away from baby) and spent the whole morning working and lost track of time. Mind you, I’d already been stopped by police twice in the last month after not being stopped by police since I was a teenager! I was going to blog about it but just haven’t gotten down to it yet (there’s a funny story to it so we’ll eventually get there) but yup, suddenly, I feel as though my whole world is crumbling. Like God is testing me. And because of that, I deleted my bitch post. I am angry at myself for even allowing so much anger to come out of me, and I decided that I didn’t want any toxic posts in my blog.

This is a happy blog. It has my children in it.

Last night, after a birthday party, I suddenly felt really sick. I went pale and wanted to go home immediately. Everyone was still loitering around saying forever goodbyes and I just wanted to PUKE. I told the Hubs let’s go, let’s go and he saw my face, how ill it looked, and he suggested I went to the washroom first to let it out before I messed up the car.

I controlled myself by rubbing my own back till I reached the washroom, then released it all. I felt much better but still felt ill. Must’ve been something I’d eaten and no, I couldn’t possibly be expecting. We had arrived in 2 cars so I made the Hubs take the girls home because I couldn’t have dealt with either of them in my ill state. But when I was about to drive out of the parking lot, I’d stupidly placed the parking ticket on my dashboard and voila, it fell inside the dashboard. Great.

After paying the lost ticket fine, I finally came home and went straight to bed after a shower. It’s like, now is the time we needed to be most prudent with money and yet, I’m wasting all this money unnecessarily! What is wrong?

The next morning, I woke to start work and discovered that all my work that I’d done yesterday, had vanished. Not saved. I had been having some issues with my site and had been liaising with my host to resolve them, spam issues and what not and ever since then, it has been one problem after another.

I feel completely overwhelmed. I feel that there is a reason for this string of bad luck. I feel I need to pray.

Some people have been so kind – paying for my meals, paying for my coffee, giving me little things here and there with a show of support. I am so grateful and as I sit here typing this, I almost want to take 10 steps back and reflect upon life. I am certainly guilty of not giving my 2 girls my best. I have been stressed out most days and engrossed with how we’ll be making an income. I need to take a back seat and spend more time with them. Forget the income. If we have to sell the last twenty years of hard work, so be it. I need to give my girls what they need and the income has to be secondary. We will not starve, only lose all our material bits.

And after all your comments yesterday about J, *LOL*, I need to cleanse myself off her. NO MORE. Unfortunately, as much as I want to tell her, look, people don’t like you because of ABC and you need to stop (because I really think she may not know it?!), I have learned that it is not worth my time. I have in the past been brutally honest with some people (as I consider myself a really good friend!), and they have been hurt by it. Not all people can accept the truth so I’ve learned that it is no longer my place to tell someone things they’d rather not know. I always want to know but not everyone’s like me. When she next calls, I will not be picking the phone up. And I shall tell BOTH my parents the same. May God bless her.

And although I’m feeling pretty crappy, I am of course, grounded enough to realise that these troubles are nothing compared to the greater world. Neither of my girls have leukemia, my mother whom I love so much is still here with us today despite 9 years of fighting that ill-dreaded disease cancer, and I have the most wonderful husband beside me to hold everything together. So really, life is GOOD.

To everyone here who’s reading, I hope things are even better at your end!! Happy weekend!

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Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett degree in Architecture. She then spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this blog of over 15 years thereafter returning to the Corporate World stronger than ever as the Country Director of a British Multinational. She sets out to prove to all, that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.

Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past but has grown not one but TWO network marketing businesses in the notorious MLM (Multi-Level Marketing) industry, achieving success in under 2 years. She believes in the MLM business model but realises the DRASTIC PITFALLS and great stigma attached to it, understanding EXACTLY WHY the majority would shy away (or RUN for their lives) from ANY MLM business. But open your eyes and take time to understand it intellectually, remove your hang-ups, confirm your research, and you may just want to seize an opportunity. She did. And no, she never went about chasing people for sales. She had a sophisticated system work for her through technology and a smartphone.

She now impacts lives authentically with proven strategies amassed through the last decade of her own transformation offering online coaching programmes and always supports the underprivileged. She believes that we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.

A beautiful life without limits.

If you wish to learn some tools to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave enough to make contact as her life's purpose is to build people. She operates through a discovery call after which she will commit to helping you. Or not.

Most lose out on an opportunity because they are afraid they would be sold to, conned or whatever fear resides in their brain without even trying. And that's on them.

Mamapumpkin is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything, and she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, and supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.