Being at home for 4 weeks has saved us a lot of time going out and it has allowed me to reflect upon my years. They have really been magical, not without pain, but I am truly blessed.
I spent my first 5 years of life singing I’m nobody’s child, know that one? My biological father did not want me. My adopted father didn’t show much interest and my stepfather didn’t give two hoots about my existence either. That was then.
In between, I had many failed events and some horrific trauma from being unprotected as a child and being alone, alone, alone in this big bad world. It is no wonder I have lived on the streets as a teenager and hung out with gangsters without fear because at the end of the day, you go with who accepts you. I have done so much in the short 48 years that I would pay money to bet that I had a more colourful life than most and this is where I miss my departed friends so, so much. They were there, they were like me, and they knew. They knew the kind of different unconventional life we grew up with.
Never in my life did I imagine to be where I am today. When my mom passed away, she was my everything, but I was left with a 6 figure debt. Just like that through no fault of hers except that she kept falling in love with the wrong man. I wiped out my life savings, and with my brothers help who wiped out his too, together we paid the bank. Nobody helped us. Not a single friend or family stepped up and till today, only one London friend of my late Mom stays in touch.
Since then, my life as though my late Mom had some kind of spiritual influence, or perhaps it was her way of forgiveness, did a 360 turn.
The many friends who betrayed me and left me, they no longer mattered. Some people only want to be your friend because of their own agendas anyway. Just as well they got weeded out early.
I do not think I could have done this without some big mentors in my life who just showed up at all the right times. The millionaire who had a butler to iron his shoelaces (thank you), Toh Puan who offered me her strength in spirit (thank you), the international architect who offered me an honourable job (which I humbly declined, thank you), my dearest departed friends, the guy who understood and protected me inside out (how I truly miss you), the lupus girl who holidayed together with me in Poland plus sleepovers in London, the South African Mama who ran away from her husband like an espionage spy and my dear Doctor friend who dug her own child out of the grave. Wild. Yet the reality of it is that these real things have happened. It makes me feel old. I cannot relate to those who have not seen life.
Thank you too to the friends who bitched about me a million times over. Some said I could never be slim. Some criticised the way I looked, the things I did or didn’t do and some just made up lies about me through and through. They know exactly who they are. A lot of the times I have underestimated who I am, but no longer. Today, I know exactly who I am and I know exactly who I am not and never will be.
The thing is, nothing has changed. I am who I always was. When I joined Asiaworks at 19, I already knew who I was and who I was going to be. Nothing has changed at all.
Betrayals have taught me strength harder than even what any man or family member hurt me with. They showed me the side of humans that I never believe existed but so thankful that now I know. I’ll tell you a funny story. Once a lady spent a few hours with me sent by the enemy and the whole time, I knew she was a farce. I’m telling you, it is solid experience that sharpens your antennas to identify these little shits whom I actually feel sorry for now that I know better.
Anyway, the reason I share vulnerably today is to lift someone who is at rock bottom. I know that there are so many of you out there in despair. The pain is real and you are struggling so hard that waking up seems impossible.
Please trust me today. This is temporary.
If you make the decision that you will not be defeated, you will rise. Taller. Stronger. And earning a million bucks or more till none of this matters anymore. New love will enter your life. Things will start falling into place even when you know it can never be true. Trust me. For it will become true if you made just that one decision that you will NOT be defeated but rise instead. I am holding your hand tight and praying for your clarity from every direction. You will be OK.
**************************************************************************Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett degree in Architecture. She then spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this blog of over 15 years thereafter returning to the Corporate World stronger than ever as the Country Director of a British Multinational. She sets out to prove to all, that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.
Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past but has grown not one but TWO network marketing businesses in the notorious MLM (Multi-Level Marketing) industry, achieving success in under 2 years. She believes in the MLM business model but realises the DRASTIC PITFALLS and great stigma attached to it, understanding EXACTLY WHY the majority would shy away (or RUN for their lives) from ANY MLM business. But open your eyes and take time to understand it intellectually, remove your hang-ups, confirm your research, and you may just want to seize an opportunity. She did. And no, she never went about chasing people for sales. She had a sophisticated system work for her through technology and a smartphone.
She now impacts lives authentically with proven strategies amassed through the last decade of her own transformation offering online coaching programmes and always supports the underprivileged. She believes that we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.
A beautiful life without limits.
If you wish to learn some tools to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave enough to make contact as her life's purpose is to build people. She operates through a discovery call after which she will commit to helping you. Or not.
Most lose out on an opportunity because they are afraid they would be sold to, conned or whatever fear resides in their brain without even trying. And that's on them.
Mamapumpkin is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything, and she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, and supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.
