This year has been so challenging for us (relatively, probably nothing to everyone else but everything is relative, right?) because of the global changes.

1. We cannot travel and God, you know how travel has become a part of our existence. For 3 years, I’ve been traveling 4 months out of every 12 and this year we only got to do Japan in winter.
2. Due to the Virus, I have not gone for my routine 2 month check with the doctors out of fear from catching the virus and have taken my health into my own hands.
3. The kids are at home also going mad (not sure them or me more) with ups and downs. I am grateful they are with me.
4. We had to move house in the midst of all this and it really diluted the experience I felt, first when we were stuck without furniture, then when it took so long to get things done and now, I have just lost steam and don’t even care to get the house finished and ready. I’m just like….when it happens, it will happen. #Howcanthisbe!
5. We are now stuck with 2 properties that are empty not because we cannot rent them out but because I am just in no mood to get them renovated, so for the last year, we have been paying the monthly maintenance payments of RM3,000 for both and they both sit empty.
6. My wonderful husband resigned again this year and then sold his soul to the devil for his team so they get a significant pay rise too.
7. I have been tasked with some community shit that I just do not want to have any part of because of the evil of humans that I find so hard to relate with.
8. I am working on my weakness at saying no and getting stronger now. Funny thing is, when I say no, people complain about me not supporting them.

In short, this is what happened.

Being the hero of my body, I started adjusting my meds because truth be told, my kidneys have deteriorated since I started taking drugs 2 years back and taking drugs is the LAST thing I wish to do for my next 52 years of life. However, I think by reducing the dosage, my hormones took a dive and I started getting depressed. Like seriously depressed for no apparent reason. I seriously have nothing to be depressed about yet I was really depressed! Even suicidal. Slightly. Everything was wrong. Really. Ask my kids and my husband. I was always crying!

I was struggling and shouting out silently for someone to hear me out and eventually someone did and I gave myself that permission to retreat from social media for a bit, but coincidentally, I also increased my meds dosage back a little and suddenly, I became happy again. NO kidding.

THAT IS SOME SCARY SHIT.

Was it the meds or was it just me having enough time to process peace in my life without the social media noise in my face every single day?

I’ll be testing this out again soon after I see my doctors this week.

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Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett degree in Architecture. She then spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this blog of over 15 years thereafter returning to the Corporate World stronger than ever as the Country Director of a British Multinational. She sets out to prove to all, that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.

Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past but has grown not one but TWO network marketing businesses in the notorious MLM (Multi-Level Marketing) industry, achieving success in under 2 years. She believes in the MLM business model but realises the DRASTIC PITFALLS and great stigma attached to it, understanding EXACTLY WHY the majority would shy away (or RUN for their lives) from ANY MLM business. But open your eyes and take time to understand it intellectually, remove your hang-ups, confirm your research, and you may just want to seize an opportunity. She did. And no, she never went about chasing people for sales. She had a sophisticated system work for her through technology and a smartphone.

She now impacts lives authentically with proven strategies amassed through the last decade of her own transformation offering online coaching programmes and always supports the underprivileged. She believes that we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.

A beautiful life without limits.

If you wish to learn some tools to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave enough to make contact as her life's purpose is to build people. She operates through a discovery call after which she will commit to helping you. Or not.

Most lose out on an opportunity because they are afraid they would be sold to, conned or whatever fear resides in their brain without even trying. And that's on them.

Mamapumpkin is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything, and she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, and supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.