Today, everything that could go wrong, went wrong. From 5am till 8pm when I finally melted into the arms of my husband. Thank God, for my husband, my best friend, the only person in the world who truly understands me, who is so often misunderstood.
I shouted till my throat went sore, I cried till I choked, my asthma inhalers had a good workout and I said some very hurtful things. Everyone thinks I have such a wonderful life. I do. But like some Stay-At-Home-Moms, I have my moments. Moments of being TRAPPED in this little cocoon of darkness. What more, Aunt Flo waved hello and that was when I realised my irrational behaviour had a reason.
I tell T1 never to use the word hate, but I myself used it today. Shamefully.
A Dutch man told me that if I yelled, it meant that I was not in control of myself. He was absolutely right.
2011 will be different. I’ll make it different.
And how does one exactly wake up at 530am to go for a run? Pray tell. What time do you need to sleep in order to do that?
**************************************************************************Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett degree in Architecture. She then spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this blog of over 15 years thereafter returning to the Corporate World stronger than ever as the Country Director of a British Multinational. She sets out to prove to all, that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.
Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past but has grown not one but TWO network marketing businesses in the notorious MLM (Multi-Level Marketing) industry, achieving success in under 2 years. She believes in the MLM business model but realises the DRASTIC PITFALLS and great stigma attached to it, understanding EXACTLY WHY the majority would shy away (or RUN for their lives) from ANY MLM business. But open your eyes and take time to understand it intellectually, remove your hang-ups, confirm your research, and you may just want to seize an opportunity. She did. And no, she never went about chasing people for sales. She had a sophisticated system work for her through technology and a smartphone.
She now impacts lives authentically with proven strategies amassed through the last decade of her own transformation offering online coaching programmes and always supports the underprivileged. She believes that we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.
A beautiful life without limits.
If you wish to learn some tools to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave enough to make contact as her life's purpose is to build people. She operates through a discovery call after which she will commit to helping you. Or not.
Most lose out on an opportunity because they are afraid they would be sold to, conned or whatever fear resides in their brain without even trying. And that's on them.
Mamapumpkin is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything, and she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, and supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.
I had a meltdown moment(s) a couple of weeks ago. Hormones. It was SO bad I thought I was stuck down there…but somehow Ben pulled me through it..it took two days to get over it. Bloody hormones. Hang in there. You and I are still on the same cycle!…LOL. more or less. I am not an early morning person but they did say that mornings are the best time to exercise…you could probably do it after dinner when the kids are still mucking about..run right in front of them!…hehe..*hugs*
yes.. those darn hormones.. i was being a bitch y’day too. I kept picking on my hubs for not wiping the dining table.. until I screamed murder. I always shout at my daughter ‘I hate feeding you!’. today I was numb when visit to Dr Wong showed Amber had a relapse n more allergies tested. I cried silently for her then.. and swallowed my words. There’s a reason for her lack of appetite.
we are entitled to our moments.. but it shall pass
Hugs and may 2011 be a better and fruitful year for us and ours !~
I know it’s hard to believe when people tell you that you’re not alone, but I still have to say it. You are not alone!! We have all been there. I have been there, and I know how it feels. But yeah, let go, move on, strive to cope better, be in better control, till the next irrational moment sets in. Then start all over again. Keep pressing the restart button. If God can forgive us every time we pray for his forgiveness, there’s no reason why we cannot forgive ourselves.
oh, and a FABULOUS new year to a FABULOUS mama!! *HUGS*
Everyone will have their moments one ler. God knows how many times I blew my top like some mad woman or sobbed like a running tap. It’s just one of those days that we feel it’s the end of the world and nothing will ever be right. BUT how wrong we are…things can and will get better. Just hang in there!!!
Btw, I find evening primrose oil does wonders to those horrible mood swings that precede Aunt Flo’s visits. Used to blow up so much more intensely that H was afraid for his children.
“That which does not kill us makes us stronger” – Friedrich Nietzsche.
Every mother – SAHM, FTWM, PTWM – have challenging moments. What makes it easier is to have our dear partners/spouse to help us through those difficult times, because only they will understand and allow you to go through the motions.
Happy 2011..be strong, stay happy and cheerful. Remember these moments are momentary and will pass. Hugs and kisses to all of you.
HAHAHAH…that’s why I run. I have so many mad moments.. running, I find, helps me offload some of that anger off.
I sleep at 10.30pm.
You. Will. Not. Regret. It.
Everymorning..I say this mantra.
but of course, being human… sometimes, it’s inhumanely impossible to wake up after a horrible horrible day before. So, some is better than none.
oh ya
HAPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYY
NEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!
*pop champagne*
Let’s drink to a better new year! CHEERS!!! *hic*
Shall we sing too?
Yes, running 10km daily is my me time & it helps me to destress. I wake up at 445am & sleep by 11-1130pm (I have an hour nap in the afternoon).
HAPPY NEW YR!
I have bad moments every day and I take it out on my poor kid 🙁 I should take up running to de-stress…arrggghh!
Happy New Year to you and yours. May 2011 brings you lots of joy, good health and fortune 🙂
I’m the crazy woman on the block here so no worries, you are not alone!
I don’t run – yet but I eat a lot BUT I am going to make a change soon! 😛
Happy New Year and may 2011 give you a NEW LIFE! hehehehe
I stumbled across your site by accident…. I’m glad I did! You’re brutally honest, and that’s why your post is so easy to relate to! All the best to u in 2011! You can definitely make it different! 😀
Some days you’re the pigeon, and some days you’re the statue. Accept it and move on. Tell yourself, tomorrow can only be better, whenever you have a bad day. Like what Mott says, running helps me de-stress. My mind goes blank when I focus on moving my fat and stumpy legs.