So after a day of highs, today is an all time low.
I woke up with pain, so much pain. It’s the kind of body ache one gets when they’re coming down with a fever, or have a fever. My head hurts. My nose hurts. My shoulders hurt. I wish someone could use a hammer on my body to release all these toxins and knots entangled within this stagnant body of mine. Is it my allergies acting up? Is it lack of sleep? Is it the kids?
Whatever the case, all I wanted to do since I forced myself out of bed this morning was to stay in bed. I spent the day screaming till my throat became chaffed and my kids are barely fed. We had hard boiled eggs for lunch.
Today my period came and my tummy’s aching like I’m having birth contractions. Today, I’m feeling that I’m really not cut out to do this stay-at-home-Mom thing. I have been thinking of going back to the work force all day, but when I remotely suggested it to T1, she said NO!!! “No, I don’t want drivers and maids to pick me up from school!!! I want my Mommy!!”
Yes, little girl…..but Mommy is so tired of this. Mommy can barely stand forcing another baby to sleep in this lifetime. It is 6.10pm and from the moment she woke up (8am) till now, T2 has not slept. She is so skinny, doesn’t want to eat and doesn’t sleep. Is it any wonder then that she cannot grow? Kids grow when they sleep! I am stressed. I will not pretend I am not. I am very stressed.
What are my lessons to learn today, I wonder. Please give me the strength to continue.
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Hope you are better now! Btw I just wonder how light is T2? My baby girl has just turned one but not more than 8kgs, is it normal? I think I must check with her doctor too, she doesn’t seem to grow after 6 mths old! 🙁
hugssss.. hope you’ll be well real soon!
my almost 15 mths girl also has weight gain issue. she’s below 8kgs for as long as i cam remember. i am also stressed to the max!
but my doc said as long as she’s on track with other developments, it’s fine. fine if she’s not losing weight though…
Maybe she will start sleeping and eating when you are not around. Not a terribly bad idea to go back to work. When my kids are with my MIL, they eat really well and naps for 2-3 hours because she is BORING! Over weekends, nobody eats and nobody sleeps.
yep, not a bad idea. Maybe u really should go back to work. Take care..call/text me if you need anything. **hugs**
Hey mamapumpkin, I feel your frustration and tiredness. You know why the kid stay up and doesn’t want to sleep?
She enjoy your company.
Based on my own experience, it is really tiring if we want to put the baby to sleep at the time that we set unless, you set a routine, but don’t beat yourself up if you missed out that routine once in a while. It’s perfectly OK.
I don’t put my baby to sleep as much as last time (and ended up disappointed, more tired).
Instead I will let her play by herself, put the toys for her to play (if she is no longer interested in old toy, I’ll keep the old toy in other place first) and read stories to her (read aloud), even if she don’t listen, and put her in bath-tube, while you take hot shower.
I once read that if we want to keep our children occupied, introduce reading, painting, drawing, think that’s one of the trick to have have more time for ourself, and keep children occupied for long time + learning + and happy too.
Recently, I bring her to the park, after work. I can walk & she gets to see a new environment.
Over the weekend, I bring her to toy-stores, mph. Just to keep her with lots of activities.
When she’s tired, I offered her breastfeeding. Then she will sleep.
*HUGS* Just keep chanting: ” This is just a temporary phase .. It will soon be over.” That’s what I do, it helps sometimes 🙂