I have reached a stage of my life without a strong mother figure now where I want to just be. There is no more persons to answer to, live up to, thus the time has come for me to really just be. I have no interest in new friends, exploring new things unless I so desire at any point in time and right now, I just want to live for myself. I will help myself first and foremost. Everyone else is secondary.

I know who my friends are. They are the same friends who have followed me through thick and thin through the years and despite not being in touch regularly, I know they are there for me when it really matters. The thing is, I am quite self sufficient. I have these friends because I truly love them and want them in my life, because they are such fantastic people, but not because I need them. I love them. And they love me.

All these fly by night friendships that people make and go through highs of euphoria and then dips of despair, those are not true friendships. They’re just time passers. I’ve had many of those too just as a consequence but have never taken anything at face value. And thankfully too, because it is only people who truly love you sincerely, who would be the ones who have no malice, no ego nor pride, no insecurities, no jealousy nor envy with you. And believe me, that is a hard thing for many women!

If they’re not envious of you for A, it will be B. If it isn’t B, it will be C. Sometimes egos get so hurt that they turn the tables around in defence then quietly lick their wounds. Sigh. I wish I could help them but I do not want to anymore. I need to spend my energy taking care of my own family instead of traipsing around town lunching like a tai-tai with too much time wiling it away. Why do people do that? I’m not one to judge but perhaps they live in emptiness or there isn’t a purpose. Because shit, life itself is so darn busy already. There is no time to waste at all.

So of late, I have been rather productive. On top of work and caring for my two girls without a freaking maid (let’s leave that story for another day, shall we?), I have been expanding my various little businesses. I have also begun decluttering the home since we have been unsuccessful in securing a penthouse and it is just too costly to move into a house. Probably best we save the cash for holidays instead, create more memories, and put aside a chunk for my medical expenses. My commitment to the Children of Myanmar stays, but of course.

Heart surgery will cost RM150,000 at IJN. Unfortunately, it is something that cannot be done non-invasively, so they would have to stop the heart and saw open the rib cage to change the aorta. Having it done in Singapore will probably cost double? I am hopeful though that my lifestyle change and the consumption of miracle food will reverse this condition.

The kids have been growing really fast and looking forward to the new school year. Me not so much, LOL!! Why? Because I just hate school runs. I have enjoyed them being home despite the fights and noise and the million times they drive me up the wall. It has all been worth it and if I had my way, I would still keep them home. But T1 wants to go back to school. She thrives on the competition and misses her friends. So we will pay through our backsides to keep her happy. T2 has been told she has no choice but to go to school, LOL!! She is so not ready not knowing a word of Bahasa nor Mandarin and never having done Math or Science so we shan’t be expecting any A grades from her!! But who cares? We are going to push her into the deep end anyway, LOL!! Sink or swim, little lady!! The Hubs has been my rock. He has worked hard to provide and I keep urging him to give up his job to work from home instead but so far he is unwilling. We could have so much fun together if he worked from home, or maybe we would kill each other, LOL!!

So that pretty much sums up what we’ve been up to at Chez Mamapumpkin. We visit Nana’s grave every weekend. The tombstone is currently under construction. We have all dreamt of her, some several times even; and we are going through the motions with the legalities that come with death. Come to think of it, even my MIL’s matters have not been finalised yet! We have to go through the Singapore court!! *major faint*

The people who know me, know me. Those who don’t, don’t. At the end of the day, life is so simple. We do our best for our own families. From cooking healthy, clean meals to cleaning spotlessly. From reading to enrich our internal souls to reading to bond with the children, pique their psyche. From household management and finances to the little things that bring joy. It is so simple. Why complicate things?

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Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett degree in Architecture. She then spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this blog of over 15 years thereafter returning to the Corporate World stronger than ever as the Country Director of a British Multinational. She sets out to prove to all, that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.

Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past but has grown not one but TWO network marketing businesses in the notorious MLM (Multi-Level Marketing) industry, achieving success in under 2 years. She believes in the MLM business model but realises the DRASTIC PITFALLS and great stigma attached to it, understanding EXACTLY WHY the majority would shy away (or RUN for their lives) from ANY MLM business. But open your eyes and take time to understand it intellectually, remove your hang-ups, confirm your research, and you may just want to seize an opportunity. She did. And no, she never went about chasing people for sales. She had a sophisticated system work for her through technology and a smartphone.

She now impacts lives authentically with proven strategies amassed through the last decade of her own transformation offering online coaching programmes and always supports the underprivileged. She believes that we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.

A beautiful life without limits.

If you wish to learn some tools to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave enough to make contact as her life's purpose is to build people. She operates through a discovery call after which she will commit to helping you. Or not.

Most lose out on an opportunity because they are afraid they would be sold to, conned or whatever fear resides in their brain without even trying. And that's on them.

Mamapumpkin is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything, and she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, and supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.