I asked my Mom today, what the most important thing to her right now was (after doing the 20 questions tag *smile*) and she replied without hesitation, “Tessa!”

My mother adores Tee so much that she spoils her with anything and everything Tee so desires. The day before yesterday, Tee got a new Leapfrog fridge word whammer and 3 large wall posters (2 ABC posters that we cut up into individual alphabets to make alphabet cards and 1 flags of the world poster for the toddler bedroom that she never sleeps in).

Yesterday, Tee got a new Thomas the Tank Engine Japanese train set. It’s really cool as it has an electronic baby train that moves! She already has the British version, the classic. The one with the wooden tracks and stations, like the one you see at Choo Choo Train. Only very spoilt children have those. Then she has a full wardrobe of clothes and not enough days to wear everything, not even half. We even have to label her wardrobe just so we can find things. So you see how my Mother spoils her……

Today, my Mother’s tongue was bleeding. For awhile now, she splatters her food sometimes when she eats because she has no control over the muscles on half her tongue. She kept absorbing the blood with some cotton buds when she finally asked me to check what it was. When I saw her tongue, I was horrified.

I was looking at raw craters of pus under her tongue (one of which was bleeding) and then two thirds of her tongue was swollen and deformed. It wasn’t one big blob kind of swollen. It was a tongue that was forced with various sized objects within it’s already small area; and the objects looked like they were dying to come out, pushing against her stretched tongue skin. It looked fucking painful.

My Mom has had cancer for five years now and still going strong although she is in pain everyday. Every single fucking day. Her killer painkillers don’t help so I wonder why they call it pain killers. They should call it pain pringles or body harmers.

I wish I could do something to lessen the pain. I wish I had enough jokes to tell her to take her mind off it. I wish she had a support group of people who are going though the same thing but it is such a rare form of cancer that in Malaysia alone, only a handful of cases exist. And I wish she could live for another thirty years, for I cannot imagine my life without her. At all.

What more with Tee? It would kill her too. For sure.

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Who is Mamapumpkin?
Mamapumpkin spent 7 years in London committing crimes to gain her Bartlett degree in Architecture. She then spent 7 years as a Stay At Home Mom raising her children as documented in this blog of over 15 years thereafter returning to the Corporate World stronger than ever as the Country Director of a British Multinational. She sets out to prove to all, that you can have anything and everything that you want; if you have that fire of desire burning within and the drive to work hard. Even better with much love.

Mamapumpkin has not only grown corporate businesses successfully in the past but has grown not one but TWO network marketing businesses in the notorious MLM (Multi-Level Marketing) industry, achieving success in under 2 years. She believes in the MLM business model but realises the DRASTIC PITFALLS and great stigma attached to it, understanding EXACTLY WHY the majority would shy away (or RUN for their lives) from ANY MLM business. But open your eyes and take time to understand it intellectually, remove your hang-ups, confirm your research, and you may just want to seize an opportunity. She did. And no, she never went about chasing people for sales. She had a sophisticated system work for her through technology and a smartphone.

She now impacts lives authentically with proven strategies amassed through the last decade of her own transformation offering online coaching programmes and always supports the underprivileged. She believes that we can all have a life of our own desires to enable real contribution into the world. But first, one needs to understand what this all means.

A beautiful life without limits.

If you wish to learn some tools to propel your life forward guaranteed, be brave enough to make contact as her life's purpose is to build people. She operates through a discovery call after which she will commit to helping you. Or not.

Most lose out on an opportunity because they are afraid they would be sold to, conned or whatever fear resides in their brain without even trying. And that's on them.

Mamapumpkin is a living testimony that women really can have a lot. Being financially and time free has enabled her to travel the world anytime, anywhere, doing anything, and she spends most of her days with her children, having fun, and supporting others wherever she can. Also having fun.